sigh..its already coming to week 5..n im still in dreamland/slumberland/brain-not-in-school land..its getting quite depressing at how slow im settling down in..it doesnt feel gd at all..not only gov and pols in sg now..but for complementary med also..sigh...but i cant blame anyone cos i have been lazy...i mean i've been reading n stuff..but i seem to be online more than reading my stuff...whatever targets i set..i never seem to complete them...even if i do complete them..i don't go the extra mile and do a bit more..eg. start on research for my gov tutorial presentation/term paper..or start thinking of points for complementary med...just feel kinda burnt out even before all these shit starts settling in..eg. after mid sem break...sigh this is not gd at all...

today my mum asked me again whether i want a birthday party..but seriously..i duno. yeah i noe its the 21st..n its quite gd in the sense that 21st..as in the date..is a public hol...but..just not into a party kinda mood with all the shit due around that time...n like what i mentioned to rozie that time..i dun like to hassle of the logistics stuff..like calling, smsing, emailing..then have to count how many pple..then cater food...then scully cater for 40 pple then only 20 turn up...that kinda stuff...other than that also need to think of decor/theme..how to entertain my guests...maybe it'll create more stress for me as compared to the term papers being due at that time...haha. but the thing is i still want my key shaped cake...but 6 pple eating a 2kg key shaped cake...hurhur. sigh.

havent gone shopping for a long time..as in not really buying stuff but window shopping in general..sad life hur...its sch..home..home...sch..then home again...worse is im not in any cca n yet i already feel like...crap. hahha..

oh well...i better go start on my gov readings soon..that mod really sucks....