im ssssssssooooooooooooooooo addicted to da chang jin! darn it if i had watched the show before i went to korea...i would have appreciated the place better...crap...but the place where they filmed the show is so much worse than wat it looks like in the show...the real thing...freaking dim n small...in the show..believable it was the palace...but the real thing....eeks. whats worse...that place supposed to be a tourist destination...but the toilets there...duno how many years never flush/clear...i couldnt breathe when i was in it...that one breath (cos i had no more oxygen inside my blood) practically killed me...the whole day the smell lingered in my head n i had no appetite...goodness.....

anyway i noe i shouldnt be watching..since exams r nearing..but im already so drained even before exams arrive...sigh i still have 2 essays...1 is a group one which technically is easier but i dunno wat im writing makes sense or not..cos mine is the discussion part n im scared its not chim enuff or whether its really a proper discussion for the research or not...cos it seems so different from those pro research done by pro researches....oh wells.....the other is an essay on how therapeutic writing helped/did not help me..problem is i din even write anything..hhahha..supposed to write a journal/diary/blog or watever..can even scribble or write poems for 14 consecutive days..den everyday read back wat i just wrote...i can roughly imagine wat i'll be writing la cos i'll probably be whining or complaining bout sch stuff most of the time...hahha...

exams this time..hahha i realised every sem i say this..but the exams just get worse n worse....this time round..5 full mods...the last time i had 5 full mods was in yr 1 sem 1 when it was still considered quite slack...gek2506..200 mcqs in 2 hrs..cheated me i tot only 60 mcq..she changed it....hy2239...im dead for that mod la..i dun tink i wanna take anymore hy mods...sw3206 gender studies..another dead one cos its so soci n i cant write soci stuff....sw3217 mental health...open bk but i havent done any readings on that mod at all.....sw3101 research methods...open bk but...eeks that kind of mod..open or close bk also no difference to me....sigh.....n after exams i dun really have a break also since a week later i have to start my placement..all the way till july....siggghhhhhhh n its full day work...lucky sat no work la cos most places sat need to work also.......but...will i like my placement? i wonder..cos i heard a lot of seniors din have a gd impression...n some others din wan to be social workers after their placement....hhmmmmm....wat category will i fall under? i dunno..some of my sw frens asked me before whether i will be a social worker after i graduate..seriously...im not sure...the main thing thats stopping me is the pay...contradicting myself rite...if i want a high pay then i shouldnt even major in sw..but my interest la...hhahhaha...so if work in mcys or hospitals not so bad cos the pay higher..but i dun wanna work in fscs..not only low pay but i dun like the job scope there..cos i noe i cant handle youth or delinquents....but as a social worker...its not really professional to only want to handle certain groups of pple rite....sigh...................