im torn..i duno whether i should apply for the social work training scholarship...i want the scholarship..like who doesnt..but..i dun wan to go thru the hassle of submitting in forms..letters..photocopy certs..write an essay..n not get it in the end. yes im not confident of getting it at all. y? cos i dun have cca, i dun go on overseas missions to help rebuild aceh or sumthing (like some others), dun have church activities which i help in counselling (like some others), dun even help out at any fsc cos i dun even noe where's the nearest fsc from my place, dun help out at any meet-the-people's session cos there isnt one for my area..thats the problem when one lives in a private estate...just like when during lectures when there is mentioning of mps, fscs, upgrading of stuff, etc etc etc..me n yifen will be kinda lost cos we dunno wats wats n dun have hands on experience from all those..n we have to work doubly hard to even noe wats wat..whereas the rest know wats wat from their daily life n noe the issues of the masses more..ok back on track..ya i just dun have the confidence..some more i'll be competing with year 3s n 4s..for a total of 10 scholarships. how to fight? me ganna KO.

plus..i hate interviews..boohoo..i'll make a big boo boo if i really can get selected for interview...i need referees' letters..wats inside a referee's letter? any of u can help me if i decide to apply? boohoo..but anyway i still have some time to tink bout it..deadline is 27th jan but of cos i need to get stuff sorted out before that so i can mail it in in time...

anyway..school's starting in a week..i really wanna scream WTF out..but..nah..but i really din feel that i was actually on a holiday (as usual)..haha..its worse when i duno wat mods to do..this sem is my most disorganized sem...until now i havent figured out wat mods i wanna do..most likely it'll be that 3 (research, mental, gender) but i tink yifen wants to do the 2 (mental, youth) n my heart also wants to do the 2..but..mind opposes heart..n for me mind is winning for the time being...hhmmm...

anyway i got dental tmr at 9am..i duno y i chose so early..plus..its the 1st day of sch..n my dentist is just oppo tj there..n i can imagine the orientation mayhem..haha..

shall continue tinking bout the mods..hhaahha...