FUCK

sorry but this is the only word in my head now. i waited for so long. i wanted to wait for this to exercise my heart cos i noe my heart will beat real fast, so that when i see my exam results i wun die of a heart attack. n now. i didnt even see a bit of it. not a single shuttlecock feather. i didnt hear a single bit of cheering. i didnt yell a single bit at all. i wanted to feel the tj spirit. since we havent had an all boys girls finals after a 2 year rest. i wan to cry so badly now. even a person who isnt that enthu about sports, and who doesnt really like tj can feel so excited and bonded during today's match, let alone me who knows the game n want the championship so badly. did that __ ______ ____ go today? if he/she did, probably thats y we lost. but, how did i get the date wrong? i rem hearing its fri also. same as rozie. why why why why why why. i didnt wan to work yet, so that i could go to the finals, yet now, i didnt even step a single foot to head towards toa payoh. n i love the atmosphere at toa payoh. since sec 4, after winning the B div title, i just love going to that place, but yet...

FUCK.